I was 18 and I had still never gone all the way Yes I had messed around a little bit with some guys here and there but I was saving myself for somebody really special And then I decided that the most special man in the world the man who I wanted to do it with for the very first time was Ryan He was 49 years old and he had been staying with us in our guest room ever since he split up with his wife a few months earlier Ryan and I got along great and I thought he was just so hot I wanted my very first time to be with a really experienced and sexy much older man like him so one day I decided to make my move on him Would I find out that Ryan was as hot for me as I was for him and would I finally get what I so deeply desired while keeping it a secret from everybody else My First Time Was With A Hot Older Man